Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Hypothesis : ego as a set of rules

GOD created us as a self learning rules engine with multiple sensing organs. The basic rules given were,

1. Stay in default happy state
2. When hungry get sad. On sadness cry.
3. Take in data from sensing organs, process it with existing rules and if needed, learn.
4. When in new condition, choose fight or flight.
5. When in fight mode, but safe situation - reflect the situation.

When kids see parents smiling at them, they imitate the parents as per situation 5. When strangers smile, sometimes kids cry taking it to be unsafe situation of 4.

We see our parents, learn their behaviors. When in situation X, do situation Y because success was achieved doing that or it doesn't matter so try what has been tested. So most of the times we tend to be like our parents in basic traits.

Then we learn from friends, teachers etc.

All these are being stored as rules. We have now become a huge set of rules. We learn how to make meta-rules, rules about rules. For example, learn things from good person, not from bad person. So each observation gets colored by such meta rules. Then we make meta-meta rules. And this goes on.

A big set of these rules goes in at such a deeper level that we don't question them. They go into our sub-consciousness. These rules become so complex, big in number and convoluted that they start forming a mind of its own. They invent a concept of I. They then start defending themselves against what they perceive as attack. They do not allow conscious mind to question some of the basic rules. They control emotions of mind - fear etc.

If these rules were correct, complete, non-contradicting etc. things would still be fine. But most of these rules are made by single situation like all men do not have heart and most of them are not true when time or situation changes. There are rules that talk about I like i am not a fighter and these were formed because of a situation when somebody was weak. Even after attaining good amount of energy the rule is not ready to be changed.

Is it possible for us to keep these rules aside as per our will? Ofcourse we need them most of the times but can we exercise control on them? Before you know some rule in you would have already triggered a discomfort feeling, a mild fear. And you are now focused on something else.

This could be the aim of meditation. How can one keep these rules aside at will for a time one chooses to. Once one can do that, one can also transform some of the most fundamental rules, also called as context. One can also follow a goal instead of being lost and most of the times creating more pain for self.

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